Success : Analysis/ Interpretation

I was again trapped in my genuine mood to write after so long. I don’t know maybe I was too busy thinking of Alvin’s sickness. Or maybe too I was frantic on what’s going to happen in a few months from now. Will I have the chance to plan for the future? Or will I just settle within my comfort zone? I don’t know. The answers are out of reach at this point in time. Concerning the anxiety which was wrapping me every time I try to bring to light the stance of tomorrow, I realized that it’s time for me to detoxify. I surfed the web and find several inspirational words which could possibly change my life or yours too.

“The best changes often start as a single, simple thought. Think big, and discover the ways to make your dreams real”.

“I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure: which is: Try to please everybody”

“Six essential qualities that are the key to success: Sincerity, personal integrity, humility, courtesy, wisdom, charity”.

I have always been awestruck by the achievements of entrepreneurs. Just admired people who made it big from rags to riches. And been in the situation where I fantasize of being successful too. Success however cannot be gauged by any social stratification nor can it be seen by the years of experience you rendered in your chosen field.

So I think through. Success is something that can be seen even if the eyes are closed. It’s something that you would want to find ways to promote its longevity. Real successful people are those who cling on the right perspective even if it means lesser chances to thrive. Successful people are those who wish to bring out a positive change into one’s life. Years may pass but real people will stand out like a vivacious jewel – glowing, bouncy, and lively. This scrutiny will be grasped by me, until I find the right answers at the right time...

substance over form

LOVERN
god made you so special
you are the work of art.
unique in every way
all soul, body, mind & heart
this mix that makes you
wonderful is no mean feat
making your life a gift
to each that you meet
so to give this award
is the least i could do
coz this world is a better
place because of you!
- jobs

No. 5 | Boston Kreme

I’m not a saint. I have been in countless of wicked burdens, I must confess. I’m not proud of it and yet I don’t have a particular right to deny it. I have seen my life repeatedly and nonetheless, I’m still incapable of perfecting it. Fears are coming every night, roaring like a thunder in my ears. I listened carefully to scrutinize what was it aiming to tell me--- I didn’t find one. Still, I find every morning so comforting. It’s like a new novel lingering to be read and explored. It’s amazing how I discovered the sweetness in life’s resentment. It’s funny how I came to a point realizing what I am capable of doing (that I didn’t know). The remarkable way of finding out how much love I could give and take was truly wonderful. The learning to overcome my insecurities and welcome fascinating odds made me appreciate the life in my pocket now. I have learned the unbreakable way to be happy and that is to be happy for other people. I'm so learning it, little by little, I try. They say perfect happiness can be found at once. However, I would say it’s an extensive course of valuing your meaning in this bottomless spot called lifetime. A voyage that one has to seize. An integral prophecy that one has to sustain. Moreover, a beautiful love story that one has to share. – Happy 5^th anniversary...

No. 4 | Memoirs Of An Old Child In Me

Twelve years ago, I was like dancing with noiseless music. Trying to see the world that was encasing me, I was taught how to creep from a distance. I remember how I would watch the children play --- their laugh, footsteps, very remarkable. However, I was weak and just too afraid to be wounded so always, I would just gaze at them from a distance.

Secluded in my own miniature paradise, I secretly built my dreams and kept my frustrations. No one knew when misery is encasing me --- no one. I pledged that I would be strong and that there would be no space for grief. Life is a battle and one needs to play hard, I said.

Then reality took in. Life should not be like that. Failures are already given in the equation hence, learn to deal and live with it. Experience is always the best teacher, they say, and so heed. Never make the same mistake in any circumstance and do not ever rationalize a stupid action you have done. Never deny your crime. Do not overlook a good kiss just to please somebody’s ignorance. Never rush into growing old. Enjoy your childhood --- it is priceless. Value the gray hair on your head --- its worth reminiscing. Learning to love others is not thorny but it takes a while to love your own self. Life is a journey and love is part of that process.

Its never late to relish the present --- laugh, speak up, live, love, keep burdens away, get intoxicated, party all night, smoke in, smoke out, be crazy, yell, whisper, kiss, play, and swear if things sucks!

No. 3 | Growing Old

At one point in your life, you will realize that you are worth more than that. You will probably see the beauty that was once never appreciated by others. You will be smarter with your actions and less wishful in thinking. The insignificant tears you have shed will be forgotten, as you grow older. The people around you will accept all those dim-witted actions you have made if not, love ‘ em. You will enjoy counting how many boyfriends/ girlfriends you have had and to reminisce all the craziest and naughtiest whims you did with them, surely will make you smile! Heartaches will be laughed at, same with the mushy scripts you have written. They will not even notice how ugly you looked like or how fanatical you dressed up. Disappointments will just be a part of the history, as you grow older. You will know how to play with different crowds without compromising your ego. It will not make a big disparity how many times you have laid in bed; the important thing is how many times you stood up smirking! All the wrinkles you have acquired throughout the years will just be included in the rushing air as futile fragments. All these, as you grow older.

No 2. | Drifting Mollusk

In the midst of uncertainty,

I momentarily look for answers

Thinking it would be easy,

I plunged off unto nothingness

I was wrong...

I was hurt...

I was dead for a second or two but who cares anyway?

I seek no counsel,

companionship I refused from a person or group.

It is only in seclusion that I find my inner strength

It is only at night when everybody is asleep that I cry

People say I'm strong for not weeping and for the guts

I have to face each day with blankness...

(sigh...)

Little did they know

that I am desperately saving the entity in me

It is only my God who knows how I struggle hard enough

to save my lost soul...

After this storm,

a better individual will be formed...

After all,

the best theories are shaped during

catastrophes…

No. 1 | Cry For A Piece Of Sanity

Queries in psyche keep me idle

Where do I go? I ask myself

What is ahead of me?

The answer, I could not unearth

Thought I have poured out all my sentiments,

I started believing I’m all right

Skewed into reality, I continue the trip to my so-called happy life

Everything's well, life is good, I am in bliss and I am lying

A man out there is taking my hand,

he promises everything and just keen to take care of my broken heart

He said he would fix the whole thing

He said he would do everything

I was unresponsive, reluctant and too subtle at that moment

- I turned him down

He cried in silence

I told him he’s not good enough so I asked him to leave

From then on, he never stops from steering me

- Slowly, Deeply

Every single day, nonstop

I'm not stupid, am I?